I think of you more often than I should
Strangely, I ponder the secrets you kept,
And I wonder, would you return if you could?
While your heartbeat slowed, soundly we slept;
Had we known you’d be gone perhaps we would
Have held your eyes within ours and wept,
And made amends like good children should.
Beneath threadbare rugs all offenses we’d have swept–
We would return to any moment with you, if we could.
Perhaps we would have opened our arms and lept;
And, your arms outstretched, perhaps you would
Catch us; instead, unknowing, we slept.
We need not speak what is understood:
But when he looked upon you, a child, he wept.
I think of this more often than I should.
Did you struggle for time with him while we slept?
If he called you back–would you come? If you could?
Was your love for him one of the secrets you kept?
It is far too long since last he wept.