Ode to My Very Last Fuck

To the many quips I swallowed back

And the aggressions I let live:

Natural and woman and is she “black” black—

My third to last fuck I give.

For every curse I swallowed down,

For the assholes I granted reprieve;

For every smile that covered a frown—

My second to last fuck I leave.

Years I spent making myself small—

At last, to myself I am true.

For those who were contented with watching me fall—

This piece of fuck here is for you.

I bid you farewell, I promise I’ll not call—

I can breathe deep, I’m finally free.

I leave a gift to split between you all:

Half a fuck to you, from me.

I’ve wiped the grime you left on my shit,

And I’ve pulled myself up from the muck—

But I found this for you, and I shined it with spit—

Here—my very last fuck.