You suckle at her teat though you’ve had your fill. You are engorged to the point of aching, but you
Must have all of her.
She is weakened under your weight.
And under the weight of your father before you.
She must have been beautiful once, you muse.
You’ve never seen her, though. Not really.
You’ve always looked past her and imagined
What she could be.
You’ve done this for as long as she has been and now
You can’t see what she never was.
Still, you have ruined her. Perhaps she had promise. Once, before your fingers grazed her
Body–already claimed but belonging to her–she was free and she was beauty. Only for a moment.
From the moment you saw her you knew she must
You wrecked her. Now she bears your children–hungry, tired, huddled together. Their voices are weak–you have taken yours and left them nothing.
You sneer at them. They should find their own way. But she is their mother. They see her scars–the holes you have made in her–but they love her.
Her heart is skidding to a halt. You can hear it. She exudes an odor that she didn’t have before. Oily and sweet.
You will drink yourself to death. You know it. They know it, too. But you keep at her anyway.
You will go. They will to, too. No one will be left to bear witness to the mess you made.