It Doesn’t Hear Black Prayers

If

There exists a god

–Any god–

It doesn’t hear Black prayers.

It locks heaven when darkness draws near

And misses the wails

–hundreds of years worth–

For something different.

      

“If you cannot make this better

Make me different,”

Or so goes one prayer.

  

      

It does not respond.

  
Instead It turns away

And does not see the shape

A bloated broken black body makes

Rotting in the sun.
     

It misses the scent of hopelessness

And despair turned in upon itself.

It cannot feel the fingers pulling

Sunday after Sunday

–Dressed in what could be afforded–

Plucking pieces of It from dirt

Holding the remnants to the light.
     

Like the parents–absent and present–

Who stand as equals accused

It is gone from us.

It denies us and has learned not to flinch

When we cry for It

Babes who have only ever known the

Promise

Who will only ever feel The Void

As reality.

       

If

There existed

A God

I would tell Him

I hate him

For making me this way

For the skin that had to grow

Thick

The back that replaced bone

With steel

The face that had to find beauty

In itself

And for never once

Opening the windows

To let a prayer in.

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